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My Eulogy

I finally found out who you are today·Now I’m freefalling from miles away· I can’t believe that I believed your lies·

                                    Still falling from the black skies

I know the Earth is getting closer now·You helped me up and then you pushed me down·Now you’re looking down on me·

                                    Your head rolls back, you’re laughing

Cutting off from where the fear began·I disobeyed it when I held your hand·Wishing hard that I could take it back·

                                    My word is grey and fading fast

About a minute ‘til I hit the ground·My pounding heart becomes the only sound·I blink back tears because I want to see·

                                    Where my body’s going to be

Too far from saving but I’ll be OK·They’ll find me here and you won’t get away·Five seconds, it’ll all be done·

                                    I turn around and see the sun

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